Gentle words
Understand that it is ok to comfort yourself The small sounds of the tv playing the voices of friends you have come to know well is not a wrong thing to listen to. It is ok to sit on a soft surface Sometimes you need to take on the posture of a slightly crumpled infant, held up in a sitting position to look with large black eyes at the world. This is often better than a futuristic chair even with all its knobs. It's ok to soothe yourself with the feel of soft blankets and almost painful bathwater that makes you sweat through your hair. Yes, it's ok to light candles. Tiny fires in big darks, small warm tongues that murmur gentle words just out of hearing. Why do we deny ourselves these small, soothing pleasures. We would not deny a baby though their needs are the same as ours. Jobs, age and time in this weird world do not change that. My thin veins have thrummed with Puritanical blood. I have associated soothing with sin though my body and spirit are in want of such tender care. Do it! I will, now. Ah, the beads of sweat begin to form.